Friday, October 14, 2011

Next thing I know... I'll be filing for Medicare

Wow, I can’t believe I’m 24-years-old tomorrow! It’s so crazy to think about. According to the unofficial Utah Young Woman Manual, I should be married, pregnant with my second child, have a quilting table set up in the corner with wet clothes hanging on it, and have at least half a year’s supply of emergency preparedness. For the standard Utah Mormon Girl cliché, I am far behind.
I remember when my best friend, Natalie got married, I cried alligator tears the entire way home. Sobbing, “Oh my gosh! I’m 19 years old and not married! I don’t even have a boyfriend! Stop by the pet store… I need to run in and get a cat!!! It’s over! No one will marry this old maid now!” =)

5 years later, I can laugh and thank God, I didn’t get married at such a young age. I think it’s great, all the girls that find and man who will take care of them and love them forever. I admire their pluck for getting an early jumpstart on things. I honestly don’t think I could have done it.

I have learned in the last couple years, it has nothing to do with me as a woman or person. It just wasn’t time… A hard lesson to learn but a lesson that has made me the confident woman I am today.


Looking back now, I wouldn’t trade my experiences over the last few years, for anything. I can see my Heavenly Father’s hand in everything that has happened to me and all I’ve been through… It’s crazy how much I have experienced! And I have learned so much the past year.
Thing that come to mind now:

• Doesn’t matter if you have four-wheel drive. Prayer, and God alone is the reason you get home to your family safely during snow storms.
• It’s surprising how fast my Dad and I can make up after the worst father-daughter fights that would make the Manson Family shrink into a corner.
• Aimee becoming “the dramatic one” is the reason we are so close now.
• Marriage is over-rated… Especially during Valentines Day.
• The only time marriage doesn’t seem over-rated is in the delivery room.
• It’s amazing how many holidays can pass you by while you’re in school.
• I can handle 6 months of 50 hours of school a week and 30 at work before having a complete nervous collapse. Yessss…
• No matter how much momentum I think have, getting up for 7am classes during the summer is just plain stupid.
• If I wasn’t planning on doing any kind of drugs before - Seeing a tweaked out guy peel a dead cat off Redwood road, fling it into a cemetery across the street and go along his merry way, will sure do it…
• If you happen to be in a situation where you witness a tweaked out guy peel a dead cat off a road with his bare hands, make sure you have someone with you to hold on to… your knees will become very weak…
• I don’t care what anyone says about Diamonds, Diet Coke is a girl’s best friend.
• It’s amazing the difference how 60 girlfriends you see every day can affect your life, and how much it sucks when suddenly, they’re not there anymore.
• After years of this, I still refuse to believe that guys and girls can’t just be friends!
• A loyal friend is never far away (even if they move to Provo – Sssskk…)
• I still cry when R-Tex dies in Never Ending Story
• In the past year, I have become attractive to a series of older men
• Even if said men aren’t wearing a wedding ring, doesn’t mean they’re not married… Always be sure. (I swear I had no idea!)
• It’s amazing how down-hill your life seems after knocking one degree down…
• Getting a new car is fun, but more frustrating than I ever thought.
• When you go out with someone mid 20’s or older and they won’t open the door for you, no use fighting it, they’re most likely set in their pro-feminist ways.
• Living at home is not a problem when you’re best friends with everyone residing in it.
• Having a sister as a best friend was worth waiting 23 years for. =D
• I thought my mind set that death is romantic was my weird Emo phase. Nope, I still would prefer a couple to die at the end of a story than get married. Way more romantic.
• Just recently I discovered I don’t like my food to have eyes staring at me… but yes, I will eat it.

This year has been so crazy! And I can’t believe I’m 24 years old! One year away from being a quarter of a century old! I’m in love with this crazy beautiful life I have and have a lot to show for it! I am so grateful for all the people who have made me who I am today.

It’s taken me 24 years to realize and believe that everything I need, I already have. And everything I don’t have will come to me when I’m ready to receive it. God is in his heaven, all’s right with the world.

“Young in limbs, in judgment old.” –William Shakespeare
(Merchant of Venice Act II, Sc. 7)

2 comments:

  1. You are so fabulous, my Lee-Lee! You have been a joy your whole life, and a blessing to everyone who knows you. Happy Birthday from your "Mommy? Mommy?" !!!!

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  2. Honestly, I think someone going into marriage when they are older and have these realizations and the "when is it my turn?" behind them, is much smarter and will do better when they get married than someone who is younger and still needs to grow up. So, I say, "Good on you, sister!" I wish I was more "grown up" when I got married - we could have cut out a LOT of drama. I LOVE how you said, "Living at home is not a problem when you’re best friends with everyone residing in it." I think that was another contributor to our drama; since day 1 of being married, we have lived with family - and it has been AWFUL. You saying that line cleared that up for me, perfectly. Because of that - my husband has a hard time getting along with my brother sister, etc., everyone we lived with and now that we are at my in laws, my youngest bro-in-law is most definitely NOT my friend; which makes living here not easy. I love this post and I think you are SO smart with some of the mentioned decisions you have made. :)

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